unable to protect myself…

we have all experienced this experience…when we were literally unable to “protect ourself” whether it was physically, emotionally, psychologically and or spiritually… and if you are honest, it was fucking terrifying. that’s how helplessness and powerlessness feel.

so what’s my point? i am not sure i have one to be honest… i felt called to write something about this that connects us all. not to “fix” anything… because there’s nothing to fix. i guess this post is mostly about acknowledging the past and accepting it. acceptance does not mean consent and approval. READ. THAT. AGAIN. acceptance does not mean consent and approval.

for a majority of folks, the body continues to experience this terror many times over… like it’s replaying it… stuck in a loop. for some, this loop continues to today (think ptsd and cptsd). this loop can make you feel insane. it can make you want to leave this physical realm and there is absolutely no shame in noticing those thoughts and feelings. its a brutal fucking loop… and now that you see it as a loop, things will start to shift.

i guess maybe the point of this blog is this… if you are reading this, then you asked for this reminder in this moment of now that YOU are NOT alone experiencing these past experiences. YOU are experiencing them in the now even though they happened in the past. YOU. ARE. SAFE. in this present moment reading these words. wiggle your toes. touch the tips of your fingers together. let your shoulders drop.

here are a couple of books i have read multiple times that helped me start to understand what is happening within my body. these books are also available on audiobooks which i actually prefer. i check youtube first. there are a lot of complimentary full audiobooks there. the links are for physical books are below. I don’t get anything if you get the books. i’ll let you know when i have the possibility to gain something from a purchase you choose to make.

“It’s not you, it’s what happened to you” Click here to find it on Abebooks

“the body keeps the score” Click here to find it on Abebooks

“when the body says No” Click here to find it on Abebooks

much luv for us all 🤲🏼💖☯️ jeff